Characters I can't play right
Nov. 22nd, 2018 02:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
changelingchildeLoki: I am not up to playing a god, no matter how sympathetic the backstory. Making him a journal was an early step on the road to becoming a pagan, and even then I was frustrated with my inability to portray the god as I imagined him. (Also, trying to tell the myth influences from the Marvel ones was Hell. No pun intended.) I may use this as my paganism blog in future.
Hannibal Lecter, who I've tried a couple times. . I think he was the first journal I made on LJ, back when the idea of a character blog was a startling revelation to me, and while I wasn't exactly terrible at him . . . well, he's so much the sort of scheming master manipulator that even his creators don't know his motives. I was, at the time, a depressed teenager with undiagnosed autism. It was not a good match; I can't even be subtle enough to play the angsty teenage version from the relatively meh prequel. Especially since this was before there was a show, and the mythological references weren't really there yet. This is important, because one of my focuses with my autism has been mythology even since I was five and running around pretending to be Jormungandr instead of Godzilla. (My gender is tomboy LOL) I have a picture of Medusa on one wall and a dragon on the other, so I could have done that rather well, but instead I was stuck trying to play a very earthly evil genius ten years before a version that was reasonable to play as a wendigo existed.
Aaand the Master. The problem with the Master was in fact that I was too much like him. As a kid, before the depression took over and turn my thoughts into grey fog, my best traits were intelligence, creativity and sense of humor. My worst traits as a teen were semi-understandable anger at the whole world, a fascination with horror/violence and an inability to think about other people. When I first saw the episodes of Doctor Who with Simm's Master in them I fixated with an honestly frightening intensity. I don't think I ever watched another episode of the actual show, because that might ruin the fact that there was a cool, scary supervillain version of me, holy shit look at that!!! So yeah.
Hannibal Lecter, who I've tried a couple times. . I think he was the first journal I made on LJ, back when the idea of a character blog was a startling revelation to me, and while I wasn't exactly terrible at him . . . well, he's so much the sort of scheming master manipulator that even his creators don't know his motives. I was, at the time, a depressed teenager with undiagnosed autism. It was not a good match; I can't even be subtle enough to play the angsty teenage version from the relatively meh prequel. Especially since this was before there was a show, and the mythological references weren't really there yet. This is important, because one of my focuses with my autism has been mythology even since I was five and running around pretending to be Jormungandr instead of Godzilla. (My gender is tomboy LOL) I have a picture of Medusa on one wall and a dragon on the other, so I could have done that rather well, but instead I was stuck trying to play a very earthly evil genius ten years before a version that was reasonable to play as a wendigo existed.
Aaand the Master. The problem with the Master was in fact that I was too much like him. As a kid, before the depression took over and turn my thoughts into grey fog, my best traits were intelligence, creativity and sense of humor. My worst traits as a teen were semi-understandable anger at the whole world, a fascination with horror/violence and an inability to think about other people. When I first saw the episodes of Doctor Who with Simm's Master in them I fixated with an honestly frightening intensity. I don't think I ever watched another episode of the actual show, because that might ruin the fact that there was a cool, scary supervillain version of me, holy shit look at that!!! So yeah.
